In times of high stress, I shut down. I do the minimum to survive. Eat, feed Boomer and the cat. Shower, bathe Boomer...well Jack washes himself religiously. Sleep, make sure Boomer sleeps. The basics.
It is a not so great part of my personality, that I really don't like. I don't talk to people. I avoid my phone. I just get so overwhelmed. The thing is, the way I react to stress is a flashing red light for the people around me who know me well.
I can't tell you how many 'What is WRONG with you?!?!?' texts I've gotten over the past month. 'Why are you being weird...and avoidy?' I even got a few emails from you lovely people that read my word vomit.
There was just a perfect storm of crap. Taxes that hadn't been filed (ain't divorce grand?), fees owed to school, forms to file for next school year, meetings, work, deadlines, and getting ready to go out of town for a friends wedding. All that added up to completely overwhelmed Whitney. Who did what she always does and shut down.
The four days away in Georgia though, seemed to be what I needed. I'm back and a little rested, refocused, and re-energized. My best friend had a a beautiful wedding, and I was there for it. My baby brother is doing some amazing things and I got an update. I also got to sleep in some really comfy hotel beds!
So a little look at somethings that have been happening while I've been on hiatus.
Boomer got to meet Fifth Harmony, one of her FAV pop groups.
I went to see this girl in concert!
She is amazing live. Simply amazing. Made me cry, goosebumps amazing.
Then I headed off to Georgia to watch my bestie walk down the aisle.
I also lent my vocal chords to her reception...hopefully there isn't video of that anywhere. I LOVE to sing, and wish it was a viable career option for me, but I HATE watching or listening to myself sing. Hearing my song on the radio would be equal parts awesome and torture.
Now its back to normal. I discovered a few things after my long weekend in Georgia. Columbus, I have wanderlust big time, but I'm not over you yet. We have some unfinished business. Boomer, you are a serious mommy's girl with separation issues. No overnight camps for you! Whit...sometimes you just need a break. You can't be all things to all people in all aspects of your life, and that is OK.
I'm glad to be home, and back to this little corner of the interwebs. I missed ya'll.
11 comments:
I WANT TO SEE A VIDEO. You don't have to watch it... but let meeeeee!
awww Boomer! i saw fifth harmony in boston market like 2 months ago. it was funny because they all had on headphones singing to themselves and the bf and i were like "ugh so LA, shut up, you won't be discovered" and then i looked at them and i was like OMG THATS FIFTH HARMONY FROM X FACTOR!! and we felt like huge assholes hahahahahaahahaa
I get the same way when I'm stressed and have a lot going on. And I'm in such a funk right now!
Sincerely missed you my dear. Can't describe how I jumped when I saw your name in my bloglovin' feed. I hope you have more self time before you jump back in here 100%.
Life's all about balance and you need to find your own beat that you can march to. Or sing/shout to like I do :) <3
was wondering when you'd come back! sometimes we all need some time away from this here blog and i'm glad you're back!
-kathy
Vodka and Soda
I'm glad you're back and feeling better! :)
I had no idea you sing!!! And how wonderful that you sang at your friend's wedding. I'm sorry you've been feeling overwhelmed. being in survival mode isn't fun but i think a lot of people get stuck there from time to time. for what its worth, coming from someone you've never met, i think you're pretty great!
I was hoping you hadn't totally abandoned KGB but to be honest, I've been in a bit of a slump myself, both reading and writing blog posts. Welcome back!
we all need a break sometimes and being stressed is a definite good reason. hope things have calmed down a bit for you!
You're back, I'm back - everyone is coming back.
I had to really buckle down and finish school, which was a different kind of stress.
It's nice to come back to my blog people!
1. Every time you refer to your blog as KGB, I always think you're apart of some secret russian espionage haha.
2. I think I'm going through the same feelings with needing to step back from blogging for the moment. I've got soooo many 'real-life' obligations that are priority.
3. How cute is Boomer getting to meet 5th Harmony! You're such an awesome mom for taking her to meet them in the first place!
4. Can you please share of video of you singing? Thanks. Signed, The Management ;)
Hope all is going with you! xo
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